how can it be
I'm almost dead
shattered confidence
breaking heart
terrified soul
I'm tattered and torn
I'm shaking now
I don't want to lose this part of me
but I fear that it's coming to pass
I love it
I miss it
I want it to stay
there is nothing I can do
nothing I can say
everything keeps going the wrong way.
I don't know how to say
please don't go
just stay
I can't do that
it's not fair
I'm crumbling
I'm breaking apart
It's going away from me
even more than it is
He is going away from me
distance isn't what I mean
I don't want him to go away
I want to dissapear
I want to hide
I want to go away
where no one will find
what I've been hiding
no one knows
not even him
it's tearing me up inside
all the things that I hide
just to make sure he's happy
I havn't lied
I havn't loved another
i just want to be
with you
it's eating me up
spitting me out
this secret that I have to keep
crying every night
the pain that coinsides
it's cutting into me
deep into my body
into my mind
everything about it is painfull
but it makes me feel alive
this is how I feel
that's why I'm trying
to go to where you are
I can't be here by myself
without you anymore
I need you
I want you
I love you
These things will never change
so for now I hide
away from you
try to make your smile show
hide my pain
hide my sore bones
hide my heartache
hide my insecurities
and hide my truth
