nobodysfallenangel's blog: "NFA's Corner"

I wish I could be seen for who I was without color. I wish I could be heard without words. I wish I could be held by the wind that the world exhales. I wish that my pain can drift away like that of a calm running stream. I wish that my love would be enough. These are merely all wishes, dreams even. We all may have these as whatever, but this was my simple list. I guess it means nothing in the end what I have done to show the one's I love my heart.~NFA

All I want to do is crawl back into bed and that is what I am gonna do. I have no reason to be awake~NFA

Just did not feel like it! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! I am so sick of feeling this way. WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS ALL THE TIME? I have tried to live a life of being there for others, and I have not been there for me. I have no one there for me. I am sick of being rejected, and left alone. My heart has been broken for the last time. I will never let anyone get close. EVER! I seriously just wish I could fall asleep tonite, and not wake up. The pain I feel has just brought me to my knee's. I feel unworthy of ever having someone love me. Like I don't deserve it. This last person made me feel this way. Everyone tells me ohh they love me, but then why do you fucken leave? I am so loyal and so good to my people. Somehow, someway they fucken betray me or hurt me way to much. I just wish I could have someone be real with me for once. NO BULLSHIT!~NFA

I had a better day today, even though I am not feeling so well with my kidneys. I went to the doctor, and came home to eat breakfast with my friend Becky and my Godson Sammy. I had a really good morning. Then I got online and decided to call miss bonnie! HEHE She cheered me up right away. I am so glad I have friends online that are like there when I do need them. The only thing that sucks is that you all can not be here. I WUVS MY MIZ AND MY CAT!! You guys rock my socks! I just wish this hurt would go away. My nerves are really bad. I am sick of crying. I wish I had someone to actually help me take this pain away. I NEED A FUCKEN GROUP HUG MAYBE SOME GROUP MOLESTERING, but that is about it *grins*~NFA

Yeah so I fixed my computer and then am packing. I added new pictures enjoy! Be back on sunday morning. I will be on from time to time.~NFA

I got wasted not on alcohol, but sniffing charlie. Every weekend it has come to that. I say I am not gonna do it anymore, and I don't. Only on the weekends do I do it. Cos I hang out with my friend Joanna. She is all I have of a friend out here anymore. It's like I am going even lower than I ever could imagine. I never do drugs! I am sad. Not to mention my health problems. What am I thinking. I guess I just have a brokenheart, and I can't get past it. I miss her so much. How could she just walk away, but at the same time tell me she still loves me? I don't get it.*shakes head*~NFA

Damn I guess :)) I am like seriously down and out on my last tear. I wish my ex would stop being an ass and just be with me:(~NFA

I am now a level 2 suckas!