Smiles's blog: "Pieces of Me"

Well I've finally made it to New Mexico.... man the car problems along the way! I am so glad to be here and so greatful not to be going on further to Arizona. Karsen is swimming in the pool right now so I decided to come pop on and see if I was missed... hahaha I was not! LOL! Well I gotta get back to watchin' the wee one. Have an awesome weekend all! MUAH

Six months they say. That's what they give. The powers that be say 6 months. How can you tell someone that they only have 6 months left to live. I called her on the phone and she is acting so brave, not yet ready to go to hospice, wont come live with me. Says "I have things to take care of" Six months... how do you take care of everything that needs tending to in six months. I tell you true, I think not that she has 6 months left. The cancer is rapidly spreading through her body. Once it is in your lymphnodes you know it is the end. But six months... that hurts so badly. Think of the things that can and can not be done in six months. She was to write a book of our family but then she went blind. I didn't go see her like I should. What a terrible granddaughter I have been. I should have called her more, I should have visited. How do you make up for ignorance of youth when there is but six months. Death is nothing new to me, in eleven months we lost 7 people in our family - so I am no stranger to pain or loss or emptiness. Why did they give a time, why did they say six months, why could they not have said take care of her, love her and enjoy the time left. Six months just hurts so badly.

I was watching the news last night and thought this was funny. Living in Texas we are one of the bordering states for Mexico (I know you all knew that). The makers of energy drinks have come up with a new energy called "Green Card" (HAHAHAHA) The people of Mexico are suppose to drink this and then run across the border. The drink is suppose to help them make it! Now if I had not seen this for myself on the news I would think that was a bunch of bologna! But it's true!!!!!!!!! LOL

Roses are red Sean Connery you're not But when I think of you I get really HOT Okay someone take the keyboard AWAY from me now!!!!!!!

Roses are red Violet are blue Sugar is Sweet and So are you BUT......... The roses are wilted and the violets are dead The sugar bowl is empty and so is your head Okay so I am sitting at school in the ILC building waiting for class to start! I am bored!!!! Can you tell???? Entertain ME!!!!!!!!! >giggle< Stacy

I know the sharp blade of hurt piercing my soul, I know the depths of hate, the dull edge of the knife against my heart, To be alone is nothing new to me, to stand in a crowded a room and feeling lost. To hurt so deep within I ache and scream and write my name in blood... And not be heard! I scream and curse the Heavens, why must I be so alone... Why must I be my own worst enemy. To hurt, is nothing new to me, endless hours of crying, Countless teardrops falling from my soul, And yet I search for a smile, No ! I dare not take yours ! I seek my smile, I seek a place where I can go and smile and laugh, to learn of love And what it feels like to not know hurt. Yes, I know of pain. ~~SRT~~

Take my hand Don't question why We'll learn to dream We'll learn to fly Cloudless emotions run unsaid Blonde hair green eyes Our Bodies wed. Passions burn uncontrolled desire Hearts melts with an untamable fire Once were two, Now as one Souls evolved Never undone.

Well this class if full of idiots. I have finished everything that needs to be done and now I am surfin' the net. Most of these kids, I say kids because these college aged young adults are acting like they are 12 or 13 years old today, are whinning that they have not had enough time and so on. The professor is just about ready to drop 10 students right here today. I don't think I've ever seen her so pissed off as she is today. On a better note Next week is Turkey holiday break!!!!! YEAH!!!!! I am so ready for winter break but I am happy with the week of for gobble gobble day. Have an awesome day all!!!!!!! Stac

I am so ready for winter break! I need a break!!!! Two labs are killin' me! I've finished my internship - YEAH! Tomorrow 2 classes have been canceled so I only have to worry about P.E. I am soooo bored tonight! Someone entertain me!!!! Stac

Woohoo I just finished up the computer class. I made a 102 in the class.... gotta love bonus and extra credit! Now I just have the other 4 classes to finish up on. I am ready for winter break! I still haven't decided on whether I am headed to UT or not. It's a lot of money. Who wants to go out for drinks tonight? FyreTygress and myself are going to go play pool and I am gonna have something alcoholic to drink! HAHAHA Okay I am rambling! Stac