Pixie's blog: "Pixies Place"

I Want to be the One Knowing tomorrow will never come And Yesterday is gone .. If only in this time of space I want to be the one ..... . The one to leave the need, The one to make you want , The one to make you desire, The one that your dreams I haunt ... I want to feel the heat of your skin, To touch the warmth of your body, I want to be the only one That satisfies you .... I want you , To feel my passion, To feel the imprints of my burning fire Deep within your soul I want to be the Only One

somewhere there was a moment of one one thought one look one tear one wish then another one came with a thought a look a tear a wish ... somewhere the two became as one both thoughts both looks both tears both wishes melding, and emerging growing and blooming seeing and being crying and dreaming pulling another moment in trying to gain leverage adding time wanting tomorrows that would fill the mind with desire so deep and wants so strong dreams to come real life to become the song moment by moment the melody plays adding another moment till they become days .. wishing and hoping dreaming and casting bringing the days into months everlasting smiling and singing knowing for sure as one moment goes another is in the lure sunlight and moonlight clouds and stars countless wishes seeming ever so far .... letting go coming home knowing now im never alone ..... 12-01-06 3:13 am ~*~ Pix~*~

deep perceptions surface pain feelings float seeking in others what we give most wanting needing but always giving trying crying never ending a touch a smile a hug to care living mending dreams fade into the air reaching touching wanting so much simply to feel anothers touch 11-30-06 ~*~ Pix~*~

OK HERE'S HOW THIS WORK I WILL TELL YOU TEN THING'S ABOUT ME THEN I WILL PICK TEN PEOPLE TO DO THE SAME THING THIS IS A GOOD WAY FOR US ALL TO GET TO KNOW THE PEOPLE WE CHAT WITH AND CALL OUR FRIENDS I THINK IF YOUR MY FRIEND YOU'D LIKE TO KNOW ALL YOU CAN AS I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW ABOUT YOU SO IF I PICK YOU YA GOTTA PLAY DAMMIT LOL 1) I am married with 3 children, one grandson 2) I am a nature freak 3) I am 47 :-) 4) I have love making others smile 5) I have a major desire to please others 6) I hide my feelings 7) my nickname is Pixie 8) I love cooking and experimenting with new foods 9) I love mountains trees and water 10) My favorite eat out food is Chinese 11.)Ok... one extra thing about me... I LOVE MEETING NEW PEOPLE, MAKING NEW FRIENDS OK MY 10 PEOPLE ARE........ 1. Dave 2. Daykwa 3. Cindy 4. Shieldbreaker 5. KateCoedBBW2 7. afreakingperv 8. jonel 9. bad4u 10. Nyne NOW PICK 10 PEOPLE AND PUT BOO ON IT AND SEND YOUR LINK BACK TO ME SO I KNOW YOUR ANSWERS AND THE 10 YOU PICK HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!

Every sat there ..
thinking ..
random thoughts ?

No direction in mind, Just letting the mind rest to drift as it will ...

you know like all units /measures of time .. I have come to realize
that there is not a beginning or end,...
seconds into minutes..
minutes in hours..
hours into days..
days to weeks,
weeks to months,
months to years...
each and every one a unit ...
but part of whole,
each having an individuality, yet a part of a greater thing ...
spring into summer, into autumn and then winter..
again starting over .. a circle a unit, no end ..
we accept this as an absolute...
because we are "taught" it is so ...

yet in the driftings of my thoughts as i fell asleep
i questioned it deeper, i guess ..
in a way ... tho it had to start somewhere, i know it must eventually end ..
Yet if every second becomes a moment then.. where ..
who are we to decided what is natures ways of doing things..
Absolute or not, accepted or not ..
We walk into a space in time
and never realize that just our thought,
or actions will leave a scar so deep
an imprint so strong that we effect every unit of time to come ....

wow ... think about it now ..
In that one nanosecond ..
Your very thought is permanantly
imprinted for the course every tomorrow to come,
like a pebble dropped in the middle of the sea,
causes ripples to form ...
and tho we only see the surface ripple for a short time ..
those ripples continue to spread until it hits something to "bounce" off of ..
we may see a calm sea..
yet that pebble dropped in the beginning of time still ripples the water ..

Our actions are those ripples, our thoughts determine tomorrows outcomes...

Wanna know why you are as you are? ...
Look back to Your beginning,
go back into what You feel was Your start? ...
I tried .. tho i can go back into my "physical" memory
and see the actions of others that have "influenced" me even today ..
I found that I was and am still influenced
by things that happened Centuries ago....
Actions and thoughts of another ..
Centuries ago ...
imprinted ....
wow .. think about it now ..

Do Your actions and thoughts seem un noticeable and un important now?
Do you see or can you feel the scope
of such intensity that knowing Your every action and
thought leaves such an impression that centuries into the future ....
You will have an influence on others, events, or things.....

Knowing this...

feeling this .....

Can You honestly say that our time means nothing ? ...
that no one will "notice" or that no one will "care" ...
Can you really truthfully say that in this nanosecond of time..
" I have left an imprint worthy to be remembered " .....

Just like we all have different likes and dislikes,
our actions and thoughts tho ours will influence everyones tomorrows ..
One person may sit here reading this and it mean nothing to them, a bunch of words on a screen ....
But then one comes by and reads it ..
Sees, feels what is being expressed in such a way that it impacts their thoughts ..
(i hope in a better way) to make them consciously think ...
Do I want to be remembered as a giver or a taker? ...
Do I want to be a positive influence in all the tomorrows to come,
or will my actions and thoughts have a negative reaction further down the road..? ....
Yet another will read all this and think I have just lost the last of my marbles,
never realizing that that lil voice inside them is trying to get them to pay mind to something...
but its ignored, and set aside, because WE ARE TO BUSY ..
or TO DETERMINED to do what we WANT instead of what tomorrow NEEDS ...

I dont know where all this is going .. thats why its just thoughts ...

Hope you have a wonderfully Thoughtful Day My Friends ....

~*~ Pixie~*~

when things seem to never be as we want them, and life seems to keep us down and trodden, its the light in a friend, who just haps by, sharing some luv or a simple hi, that makes us realize, that we are blessed no matter what things seem like before us .." ~pixie~ MY DAILY AFFIRMATION I will wake up to the beautiful side of the day every day , I give thanks before I rise that I have another day to learn and become More connected and intuitive .. I am finding that on the path, I am not as alone as I feel at times , and that I'm not out of sync with the deities , but simply calling many by different names, tho both/all names in some way relate .. So as I seek, I learn, and in learning I can apply and in applying I understand .. The Journey is one step at a time, absorbing all that can be absorbed in that step ... Understanding that connection to Earth Mother and The Creator is a rare and beautiful gift, given to those who in their hearts truly seek to walk the path , Being willing to connect to all energies, listening to our intuitive selves, and being in a position to learn from all .." ~*~ Pixie~*~

This was sent to me by a friend, trying to help me with a situtation, Sometimes anothers words reach deeper than we can touch ourselves..... Hello world ! my name is me to you ! if you don't like me then why do i waste my time trying to make you feel better ? did I step on your chain and make you a better person ? did you bother to tell me I am special in anyway ? can I be me, without your making a remark ? after all I afforded you a moment of dignity did I not ? regardless, i am one of gods children the same as you ! if you don't like me then go whine to him ! I am sure his answer will be you need to change your diaper now and take a bottle and nap... ~blues_cat~

I am as I am, Who I am, And flow with the energies of the moment, I seek not to be more or less than I am, only to be me Simple and free , If a flower makes you smile, A flower I would send, If in the sending, the smile you shed brightens your day, Then those around have their day brighten too, A lil light passed in such a simple action, Added to, one by one till many partake of the simplest of blessings .. This is me.. My path, My reason to keep seeking The simplest and truest in all things 11-03-06 ~*~Pixie~*~

Thank You Officers Thank You for the call, that brought you to the street, Thank You for the response, thats calms the fearful heartbeat, Thank You for the times you had to make a choice, between some personal fun, or patroling our streets, Thank You for the many times you helped just because, Thank you for the many tears you shed when you wished more could be done, Thank You for putting your life on the line, each time you show up to help stop a crime... Very few say it, its an expected job by most... Even fewer realize that it comes with a high cost... So Thank You all Officers, for heeding the call of a higher order, And selfishly giving your all for a call you believe in so highly... The tears will be rewarded one day, The fear set to rest... And Then you will truly know .. You have passed the greatest test... Thank You so much for protecting us all.. ~*~ Pixie ~*~ 10-30-06