subAngelmyst's blog: "BDSM"

Ok I am posting this as someone recently tride to tell me that I have never experienced sub space because I do not suffer from extreme feelings of cold after the scene is over and because I tend to enjoy the sexual aspects of a scene to much. My opinion, thats like telling everyone on earth they should enjoy one form of sex,,,, It comes in so many degrees and variations. Who can say any one things is right, correct or proper? It's not so easy to answer this question. Try to ask it twenty submissives and most likely you will get twenty completely different answers. Everyone has her or his own sub-space. There are some similarities in this state's description, but still they are too much different. I would like to present to your attention a few answers from submissives I was speaking to. I hope these descriptions will through light on this phenomenon and will help those who dream of it. "When I am in sub-space all my feelings are escalated. I am not quite "here", I am somewhere "there". When I am in sub-space, do not ask me to take rational decisions, I can't. I want to be where I am, I want to remain in this world created by my Master. The state of sub-space does not always come to me while sex play. Sometimes I deepen in it when hearing the voice of my Master or seeing his gesture…To see him when being in sub-space is like looking through drops of water - precise image in the center and blurred image around it. "Being in sub-space I feel like electrified, like every inch of my body shines. I feel like falling from heaven. Everything around me is foggy. I do not quite understand who I am. I feel no fear, I am only excited by my falling. When in the end I "land", I go on knowing that this was not frightening. I know my Master is here, and that he will catch me. I feel like I am an entire whole with my Master." "Sub-space for me is like another world. This is so deep commitment which makes me completely concentrated on my Master: on his desires, needs, caprices and on how I should fulfill them. This is being aware of your complete belonging to this person. You feel you exist only for him. There are no words to describe this state properly - just try describe red color to a blind. You can find some words, but one who has never experienced what you have will never understand what you are speaking about." "For me this is a warm and soft feeling. I feel helpless and very woman-like. I feel a very strong desire. I can hardly open my eyes, my voice becomes very quiet, my gestures become weak. I love and remember every second of being in sub-space. I want to remember every wonderful moment of my being in sub-space, and recollect all these moments again and again." I hope these descriptions will help you get to understand better what sub-space is. I thank everyone who agreed to answer my questions. posted by: Bloody Mary

Kneeling before me Serving as my heart desires Pleasing beyond any wildest dreams. My Hand softly caressing her cheek. She offers the beauty of the gift one of total trust and control. The softness of this one's smile showing the gift of submission She is to about to bestow and beg me to take. Looking upon the grace of her loveliness... the bareness of her neck... I Set before her a collar. Soft yet cold leather and white golden studs. Her eyes lowering as I place it upon her. A twinkling lock clasping to seal the bond Between this Master and slave. Lifting her chin so her eyes meet mien looking deep int her soul... I see a tear of happiness as it runs from her beautiful eys,dropping down her cheek. Cupping her chin in my hand Her eyes raising to mine Speaking in a soft gentle voice. "From this day forth my lovely one You will wear my collar And I will be your Master. As you serve me well and me me ever proud! I am very pleased....I will protect and cherish you. For you are my prize possession, my lovely one. To you I will let no harm come."

I am kneeling in front of him, my eyes lowered to the floor, his boots reflect the pale light. He is motionless ... his breathing calm and regular ... but nevertheless I sense his strain. The leather in his hand fanning slowly back and forth. I sense something is different ... I suppress my wish to reach out towards him and to touch him, to feel his closeness. His eyes look cold and expressionless above me, starring right through my flesh. Time trickles; no motion; my knees hurt. I feel his hand on my neck, he pulls me close, my skin rubs over the coarse fabric of his jeans, a soft rush of warmth runs through my body. I perceive a fast movement and feel the leather digging deep into my flesh ... a wave of pain rushes through my body. It's like a moment of liberation ... pain mixes with relief ... I hear myself squeeling as the whip caresses me again. His eyes sparkle ... I feel his power ... every stroke increases my will to comply to him ... The lashes become harder ... my desire grows ... how far will he go? My backside burns like fire ... Is this punishment?..... Is this love? ... Who gave him the right? ... Am I the one who gives him the power? Is it my gift to him, or does he take it? I start to resist ... I press back against his hand which holds me so carefully yet so mercilessly... He loosens his grip, I fall backwards ... look into his eyes ... yes, it is my gift to him that gives him the power, my submission, my love. I lower my head and completely devote myself to him. His pleasure will be my reward.

Twas the Night of Submission Twas the night of submission and all through my soul My desires were stirring and taking their toll The chores I'd been given were performed with care In the hopes that my Master soon would be there I patiently waited alone in my bed With visions of Master filling my head Wearing nothing but anguish as the moments slipped past I wondered when Master would be here at last When all of a sudden he stepped through the door The bulk of his boot heels striking the floor In his gloved hand he carried a whip And he smiled with delight while biting his lip His chest rose and fell with the pulse of his breath And I knew that my limits would be put to the test Addictively handsome, who else could it be? The one I call Master, he who made me! “Roll on your stomach” he instructed of me “And close your eyes. I don't want you to see.” He acquired some rope and synched me up tight And put on a blindfold, restricting my sight A soft leather finger slid down my left side And I let out a giggle that would be stifled in time Securely in place, no way to escape He walked all around me as I pondered my fate “I see you have done what's been instructed of you” My vision exclaimed with a voice soft and cool “To show you my pleasure I'll give you some pain And let you give honor and worship my name.” As the whip kissed its mark, I let out a cry His power and fury making me high He continued the whipping for the next half an hour As I lay consumed in his envoking power The beating now ended, he loosened my wrist And let go my ankles and gave me a kiss He untied the blindfold and gazed in my eyes And seductively whispered, “I've another surprise.” “Go to the dresser. Pull out the top drawer. “Bring what you find as you crawl on the floor.” Again, as instructed, I fulfilled his command And returned with a collar in my small hands The feel of it thrilled me down to the core And I could tell it was recently bought at the store “Stand up so I may secure it about my sweets throat Then return to your knees and and let Master hear you choke.” My hands shook with fear at the beautiful sight And I wondered what else was in store for the night Before him I kneeled but made not a sound As the coller encircled my throat I cried, as I worshipped him so loved being at his side. While gazing wantonly into his face His eyes burned with fire, a deep crimson red Then he suddenly ushered me back to his bed “Assume the position” He beckoned with force And I quickly and humbly complied of course Tied up once again, no way to break free He grabbed 'hold of my waist and sodomized me Faster and harder He bucked like a bull Grabbing my hair and giving a pull Slapping my butt as He thrust to and fro Grabbing my nipples and pulling them so “Tied up this way, pet, you won't get very far “Taking my cock like the whore that you are. “In submission I own you 'til the end of time. “Forever, completely, without doubt, you are mine” After eternity, as night lingered on He released me once more as I fell into his arms So gently he took hme in his embrace And softly I kissed his warm glowing face Making love in the dark, my dreams had come true And here's wishing to you that your dreams do too And so I exclaim as I turn out the light Merry submission to all, and to all a good night

The difference between Violet Wands and TENS type units Electrical play devices, for BDSM purposes, can be grouped into two types: high voltage/high frequency and low voltage/low frequency. In the first group the most often encountered item is the violet wand. In the second group falls a broad range of devices generally patterned on a TENS type of device which is used in standard medical treatment. They have very different effects and one should not be considered better or a lesser version of the other. Violet wand type devices deliver a sensation that can variously be described as burning, tingly, stingy or static electricity like. The sensation is caused directly by the spark from the unit impinging on the skin. In some sense the user feels what could be described loosely as a shock. TENS type unit’s work entirely differently. Their output is designed to cause some sort of muscle contraction. This is administered through a variety of different methods. The standard medical configuration uses electrodes, which adhere to the skin. Other devices are found more often in BDSM play such as electric butt plugs or vaginal plugs. When using any of these the sensation is not felt as a shock at all, but rather as a muscle contraction. In the case of a butt plug for instance, it will feel as if the subject is being fucked in the ass. It must be emphasized that the two groupings, wands and TENS type units, are entirely different devices used to achieve entirely different ends. Some aspects of this are illustrated in the chart below. Some examples of TENS type units and electrodes suitable for BDSM use are also shown below. VIOLET WAND TENS TYPE UNITS Line Voltage, it must be plugged into the wall Generally Battery Operated Basically self contained, attachments for the most part fit directly into the wand Never used directly, generally used in conjunction with skin adhered electrodes or insertable type electrodes Output is quite visible, the sensation felt by the subject is readily gauged to some degree by the intensity of the arc. The sensation felt by the subject has to be judged by the operators experience. Self administration of these device by any operator would be highly recommended prior to using them with someone else. Somewhat narrower range of play possible. Most would describe violet wands as falling into the "pain" category, although this is obviously highly subjective. Slightly wider range of play than with wands although this will require buying multiple power units or electrodes. Good for multi user play as wands are not inserted devices. Power sources can be used for multiple partners, however any insertable electrode should probably be used on a single person and not on multiple subjects as sterilization is difficult if not impossible. Somewhat delicate in terms of the physical unit. Wands often break when dropped on a hard surface. Electrodes are generally glass. More durable as electronics tend to be solid state. Insertable electrodes can break, but are more durable than the glass electrodes of the wand. Set up is relatively simple provided an electrical outlet is near by. More complicated set up involving cables from the power unit to the electrode. However the battery operated nature of the power source can be very convenient. The first thing to understand with the wand is - the wand only creates sensation when there is a gap between the wand attachment and the body. Plugging any of the attachments into the violet wand nozzle and grasping them firmly will result in no sensation. The second thing to remember is the bigger the surface area of the attachment, the less the sensation is felt since it is spread over a wider area. With these two principles in mind, a good attachment to start with is the large globe. Its big size makes it the softest item in the violet wand kit. Start with the violet wand turned down to very low intensity and bring the globe into direct contact with the skin. No sensation will be felt. Slowly move the globe away from the body. You will notice as the distance increases, the sensation felt increases as well, until the distance becomes too far and the arc is broken. The large globe is a great warm up item since almost anyone can take it. If you are playing with someone who is at all nervous about using electricity in a scene, this is the one to start with. At very low intensity, the large globe feels similar to the static forearm hair raising sensation of a balloon. Very few people would describe it as unpleasant and it is a good way to introduce someone to the wand without causing them a lot of anxiety. After playing with the globe for a while, try moving on to the mushroom electrode or the probe electrode. Both of these violet wand attachments enable you to vary the sensation by changing how much of the electrode you present to the surface of the skin. Try the rake attachment using first all the tines of the rake then just one. Notice how the sensation gets more intense as fewer rake tines are arcing. Remember the smaller the area of the electrode presented, the greater the sensation. Go through all the electrodes to become familiar with their sensations. It is a good idea to try them all out on yourself before using the violet wand on someon

At night in her deepest secret place She dreams that she's in chains Each time the leather bites her flesh She whispers out His name Of all that she would give to Him Her favorite is her pain At night in her deepest secret place Her dreams are what keep her sane Her days are filled with sameness Endless boredom takes it's toll No escape from all life's tameness But the dreams that make her whole At night in her deepest darkest place She dreams of delicious harm Of ropes, stone walls, of servitude Of pleasing Him with her charms He says come to Me, My wonderful slave In that voice that both soothes and alarms Then at night in her deepest darkest place She melts into His arms

Safety When Meeting For The First Time ( a repost from Diva and Daddy) By Postat There is a tiny but very dangerous percentage of people out there which in all probability you will never meet. But you would be wise, in any event, to take measures to protect yourself from them. HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW THIS PERSON? Can this person give you any kind of reference, or what munches and clubs are they known at? Have any of your friends or fellow pervs, at munches, clubs or in channel heard of them? Are they known by people at the places they say they are known at? Don't be shy! Ask around. People will understand and gladly help you. In fact they will probably tell you off if you take a risk and don't! Get their home phone number and address, real name, email, and car registration. If they won't even give you their phone number, SERIOUSLY DON'T MEET THEM! THE MEETING Meet in a public place, like a munch, a cafe, or restaurant and try to steer away from pubs and alcohol; getting tipsy will cloud your judgment. Take care of what you drink! If you have read the paper or seen the news you will know about drinks being spiked! Try to have one meeting at a munch, where you can introduce them to others with more experience or for an unbiased opinion. If they object, reassure them that munches are where people who are into BDSM meet in a friendly, social way; where they can learn, pass on information and get to know each other. If they still object, then SERIOUSLY DON'T MEET THEM! Listen to what they say. One crazed individual would tell his victims exactly what he was going to do to them, yet they still met him. When he got them alone he did just what he said he would! I wont go into details here, but they eventually caught him and put him away forever. Listen to your instincts, don't get carried away. Yes you're excited, you have waited a long time and this could be the one. Take your time, listen to them, ask questions about their experience, and listen for (and do hear) those warning bells. Watch out for signs such as "I don't believe in safe words", "a true sub doesn't have limits" or "leave that to the experienced Dom/me". OK this bit is basically common sense, the same as in the vanilla world when meeting someone. But in BDSM you can find yourself naked, bound and helpless. Think! Would you feel safe with them? Do keep to a timetable, let friends know where and what time you are meeting and when you are leaving. Don't change the meeting place at the last minute or leave it for another. Do leave the meeting alone and on time. Do check timetables for trains or buses home, you don't want to be stranded and in need of a lift! Do arrange to call a friend, at a certain times during the meeting and again when it ends and of course when you get home, along the lines of a silent alarm, more of which later. OK so you have met several times, hopefully a munch was on during this time or your friends were passing at one meeting and met and liked them too. So now you have arranged your first private meeting where you can play. SILENT ALARMS/SAFE CALLS Most people you meet will be genuine but there is always that tiny percentage who are not, so protect against them and do use a silent alarm (sometimes called a Safe Call). Tell the person you are meeting that you always arrange one, during first, second and third meetings. If they object for any reason, DON'T MEET THEM! SETTING ONE UP What is a silent alarm? Where you ring a trusted person at a pre-arranged time to confirm you are all right. It's a good idea to ring them when you arrive at the address to confirm it. Then get them to ring you back straight away to check you have been given the right phone number and to let the person you are with know that someone knows where you are. If your meeting will be in a car, again phone your friend to confirm the registration number. If you go to a hotel, again call and let them know the hotel address and room number. If you are meeting at your home call your friend and let them know your visitor has arrived. I am sure you get the idea. Your silent alarm will expect you to call at a pre-arranged time, give or take 15 minutes. Do remember, you have a responsibility to call them. If you fail they will be contacting the police! So use the alarm in your cell phone or wristwatch, to remind you. If you don't they must first try to contact you at the number given, your cell phone or bleeper. You will need an "everything's all right" word and a "things are going wrong" word. This should be something you would use in normal conversation. For instance, you tell them "Hi yes (your nick name) is all right" meaning everything IS all right or "hi yes (your Christian name) is all right" meaning something is WRONG. This they can re-check with something like "I am sending (name of friend) a birthday card, want me to put your name to it?", you say "put (your Christian name) with love and kisses on it", confirming something IS wrong. Okay, this may sound a bit cloak and dagger, but if it's gone wrong then your conversation might be monitored so keep it chatty and normal. At this point your silent alarm calls the police and tells them your name and the person's name and address, car registration and any other facts they have been given by you (so make sure you get them!). They tell them you're being held against your will and may even be hidden somewhere in the house. YOUR SILENT ALARM MUST NOT GO THERE ON THEIR OWN, OR EVEN WITH FRIENDS! Leave it to the police, they are the experts and know how to deal with this situation. Silent alarms are not new and the police are aware of them. Your silent alarm should offer to go there, but only with the police. DON'T FORGET DON'T forget to cancel the silent alarm when you have left or have got home. You don't want the police arresting your long-waited-for newfound partner because you forgot! DO REMEMBER you're not the first person to use a silent alarm. Experienced as well as new people use them, at first, second and third meetings. They may be a nuisance and take up time, but you are eliminating the dangers so you can relax and enjoy yourself which makes them more than worthwhile! http://www.bcwsd.com/backroom/library/articles_us/bdsm-safety.html

NOVICE DOMINANT ADVICE from LeatherOnQ There are as many ways to do D/s as there are people, so you really need to know what your partner wants, doesn't want, is comfortable with, is afraid of, and so forth. A lot of submissives will have great trouble telling you what they want. For some of them, this is because they don't really KNOW what they want. Or, perhaps, they know how they want to feel, but they aren't sure what it is that will make them feel that way. Other submissives do have at least some idea of what they want, but they're too embarrassed to be able to tell you directly. And some submissives know what they want but feel as if it spoils things if they have to ask for it -- they want the impetus for the scene to come from you, and if they ask for something, then it's as if _they're_ controlling the scene, when what they want is for _you_ to control it. And of course, more than one of these can occur at once. A person can know only what it is she wants to feel AND be too embarrassed to talk about it AND feel as if it gives her too much control over things if she tells you. There are a couple of ways around these problems, but they all take a bit of work on the dom's part. For the sub who isn't all that sure what she wants, you get her to describe how she wishes to feel. You ask her what things in her past have gotten her to feel this way, even if it's only a small and mild version of what she really wants. And of course you also use your knowledge of your partner to guess at what you suspect would make her feel what she wants. You get her to tell you what she fantasizes about (bearing in mind that fantasies are often more intense than anything a person would like to do in real life). And you experiment. A scene doesn't have to last for hours. In the early stages, when you're just figuring out what works for both of you, you can try something for five minutes. (But just because the scene is short doesn't mean that you take it less seriously. You have to make these mini-scenes as real as your usual ones, or they won't work as a testing ground. Put your all into them, just keep 'em short.) Say you suspect that your submissive would enjoy wearing a collar. You put one on her, do a few things with it, then take it off and ask her how she felt about it. If you and she both liked it, you can always do it again for longer. But these mini-scenes let you try out things in the knowledge for BOTH of you that if you hate it, it only lasts for a short time -- this takes some of the pressure off. (When an ex-lover and I seemed to be moving in the direction of no-safeword scenes, I bought an egg timer. The idea was that he would have no safeword for the length of time it took the sands to run down. Three minutes is not very long, objectively speaking. But it can be a _very_ long time to someone who's never played without a safeword before and who realizes that this time there's no way out. I wasn't going to do a full-length no-safeword scene until after I'd seen how he handled the egg-timer version.) For the sub who has at least some knowledge of what she wants but who is too embarrassed to tell you what it is, there are a couple of routes to go. You can ask her to write it down and give it to you, since a lot of people can write things that they cannot say. You can also try dominating it out of her -- try winding your hand in her hair, pulling her head into a position that lets you stare into her eyes, and demanding that she tell you what you want to know right now. Or you can threaten some sort of physical punishment unless she divulges the information (only with her permission, of course. The punishment isn't really intended to be a motivator -- it's intended to be a way for the sub to save face with herself. She can tell herself that it's not greedy or forward or too bold or whatever to tell you what you want to know because you're _making_ her tell you). Sometimes just letting her tell you in the dark, when you're snuggled up with your arms around her will be enough. The sub who doesn't want to tell you anything because she thinks that means that she's controlling the scene or that she's forcing you into something you don't really want tends to be a somewhat harder case, but there are a few things you can try. You can tell her that you aren't promising to do any of the things that she asks for -- you're just asking because as the dom, you have the right to ask any damned thing you please and to get an answer. "Since you are my property, the contents of your mind are also my property, and you will give them to me when I ask" is something I tell my submissive. You can tell her that you want the information for your own selfish pleasure -- "Making you be submissive in a way that's good for you is likely to be more fun for me than making you be submissive in a way that's bad for you, because the second way makes me work harder for less return. So give me what I need to know to get what I want." Oh, yes, and a type I forgot to mention. Some submissives think that no one _really_ wants to dominate them, that you're just humoring them, and leaving you to your own devices is sort of a test. It's as if they're saying, "If you really want this, you'll figure it out on your own." My own submissive had a touch of this, so I just jumped in and started ordering him around, and once he was assured that I wanted it, too, his fantasies started pouring out. Once you start getting information out of the person, there are a bunch of things you need to know. 1. You know she's interested in D/s, but what kind? a. Does she want to do D/s for a short time in bed and be equal out of scene, or is she after a full- time D/s relationship? b. Does she want this to be you and her, or does she want the two of you to assume some sort of fantasy roles, like teacher/student or parent/child or jailer/prisoner? c. Does she want to be treated as a valuable submissive, or does she crave humiliation? d. Does she go for lots of symbols, like kneeling at your feet, wearing a collar, and so forth? e. Are there things that she likes to be made to say? Some subs like being made to say things like "I am yours, Mistress" or "Please use me for your pleasure, Sir," whereas others find this sort of thing too flowery and prefer sharper exchanges and still others get nonverbal when in scene and find speech annoying. (I'm reminded of a woman who told me that she could never bring herself to call a man "Master," because the word always made her think of Igor saying "Yesss, Massster," and she would start laughing. It wasn't that she was disrespectful -- she had no trouble with "Sir" or "My Lord," but "Master" made her crack up.) f. What sorts of things would she like _you_ to say? Some submissives like being called names by their dominants, some like hearing that they are slaves or that they are owned, others like being told about the various unspeakable things that are about to happen to them, others like hearing an explicit list of rules and expectations, others like hearing that their dominant enjoys what she's doing -- there's a really long list of different things that turn different people on, and I can't cover it all. (For example, my submissive loves hearing the words "You're my slave." Very simple sentence, but it does something to him. He also loves hearing, when I hurt him, "I need this, and I want you to bear it as a gift to me." To show you how different even very similar people can be, I would hate being told "You're my slave" but I would love being told "I need this, and I want you to bear it as a gift to me." (To make it even more complicated, I have no trouble with "You're mine;" it's the word "slave" that I can't stomach.) Getting a feel for what sort of thing underlies your submissive's submissive desires will help you get a feel for what sorts of things she likes to hear.) g. The above point leads in to what is the subtlest sort of distinction to make but the one that will be the most useful. Once you've gotten the answers to the above sorts of questions, you might be able to abstract some sort of general theme that guides your submissive's desires and fantasy life. Some submissives have the "I'm worthless, and I deserve to be punished" mindset, some have a "I don't want to have to take any responsibility, so I want you to control everything" mindset, some have a "I want to be so desirable that you have to take complete control of me" mindset or the "I want us to blend into one person" mindset or the "I want to prove I love you by doing difficult things" mindset or any number of others. Once you've talked and played for a while, you might get an intuitive feel for this. It may be something that your submissive can tell you, but it may not be -- she may not have thought about it or analyzed it to this extent. But if you _can_ figure out what sort of mindset underlies your partner's submission, it makes doing new things and guiding your future play a lot easier. You'll know what new things are likely to work and what won't because you'll understand the underlying motivations. 2. What sorts of things does she like besides D/s? a. Is bondage okay? If so, how much and what kind? b. Is pain okay? If so, how much and what kind? Okay. So now you know what your submissive wants. You also have to figure out what YOU want. It's easy, when you're first starting out and trying to figure out how to be a dom, to imagine some stereotypical stern, sneering dominant and try to emulate that image. But not all of us are cut out to fit that mold, and luckily for us, not all submissives _like_ dominants who fit that mold. You need to find _your_ personal style. The best style for you is not the one that's the closest to the stereotype, it's the one that makes your eyes light up and your energy rise and makes you feel that THIS is the most live you've felt in a long time. Personally, I'm a pretty gentle dominant as far as manner goes, but manner can be deceiving. One of the things I like to do is to force my submissive to do things that he wants to do but is too frightened to do -- the "You are so much mine that I can make you do something that terrifies you" feeling is quite a rush for me, but I know I can let myself give in to that feeling because I'm making him do something that he secretly wants. I also like mental stripping -- making my slave be mentally and emotionally naked with me -- he must tell me anything I want to know about him. Oh, and making him scream is fun, too. :-) Of course, your style will be influenced by your submissive's style. The sort of submissive who wants to be forced into submission will elicit a different response from you than the sort of submissive who wants to lay her submission at your feet like a present. And of course, some submissives can do one thing at one time and the other thing at another time. Just to keep you on your toes. :-) Don't worry if it feels sort of strange in the beginning. When I first started dominating my slave, I would look at my face in the mirror and chuckle and say, "This is NOT the face of the sort of person who owns a man." But that "WHO? Sweet little me?" feeling wore off after a while. That "I'm not cut out for this. I don't know what I'm doing" feeling wore off after a while. If it's TRULY not for you, don't force yourself. But do give yourself a little while to try it on and get used to it before you decide whether or not it's for you. I felt silly and nervous and out of place at first. But after a while, I came to feel that there were few things I'd ever done that were more satisfying. Copyright©1997 LeatherOnQ All rights reserved by the author.

Today, Tomorrow, and Forever...I give myself to thee,In body, mind, and spirit...In you I am set free. My gift to you is given...With trust and love inside,And I know that you will teach me,And always be my guide. As we grow together day by day,And walk the path of life...Together we will make it throughThe good times and the strife. I will proudly wear your collarAnd know that I am blessed,To have you as my Daddy;To be chosen from the rest.On our special day together...Kneeling before you as I will do,My wrists crossed in acceptance,My submission just for you to you. My head is low, eyes tipped down at the ground untilI hear you call my name...I look up at you--our eyes meet,In you I know no shame. You hold the collar before me and place it on my neck,I feel the coldness of the steel and then I hear the click. As you gather the leather for my wrists,and I feel the ties that bind...I know that now I belong to you and will proudly walk behind. You pull me up and kiss my mouth, and hold me oh so near...I feel your warmth and smell your scent,as you say the words I long to hear. "From this day forward you are mine pam, Only to me do you belong,And I gladly accept your precious gift...My love and desire for you are strong." And within our special ceremony,Our friends will be present to share...By gracing us with love and happiness to show how much they care. In my final thoughts and words to you...Daddy I want to say...I love you, and adore you,And with you I have found the way. To hear the strength within your words, and the tenderness of your careful touch,The patience as you guide me...Knowing it will never be too much. I want to be the best that I can be...make your hopes, wishes, and dreams come true,And knowing if I can accomplish that...I will be the best possible submissive for you!