My husband is having a kidney transplant soon and I have been doing alot of thinking and when you love someone you are willing to do what ever it takes to provide for them and make it to where they can be comfortable. I see how sick he is daily and I live with the daily throwing up and the not being able to walk and all I hear is pray for him pray for him but when you are praying for him you need to think about how this is affecting his three children. I'm a grown adult I can handle my own but his two little girls are having a hard time dealing with the fact that they know that their daddy is sick. How do you prepare your children for a future that might or might not include their father. I ask myself that every day but I live with the fears and pains of the everyday reality that my husband my not make it to the operating table you cant tell the times of tommmorows you can only tell the times of today. It gets harder and harder as the days go by to be strong and keep my children thinking positively about it. I get so mad at myself sometimes cause I dont know how long I can keep being strong. I know that I have to for my chilren. It just seems that everybody needs to quit being so damned selfish and think about the people around them cause they are not the only ones who have such a horrible life. My husband needs prayers along with his chilren. I fear more for his children then for him because they love their father more then life its self and they need him to be around for a whole lot longer.
