Dark Broken's blog: "Insight to my mind"

I am sick of these people that don't speak up and say what they want to say. seriously grow some fuckin nuts and speak up. I totally don't understand why people hide behind their own shadow. I will tell ya what is on my mind whether u like it or not. If u don't like someone or don't want to talk to them just fucking say it. hello the truth hurts for a reason. that is prolly the one thing that annoys me the most are those people who are always like yeah i speak my mind i am tell people how it is and then to turn it around they don't say shit. that enough of this vent for now... well wait maybe i dunno there is more bottled up but i can't figure out how to word it yet. lol ok here we go I HATE FUCKING PEOPLE MOST OF THEM CAN GO AND GET BENT

This is more of a vent. I hate my son's father. I am tired of being told one thing and then another thing is done. I swear to god when i got to PA he is getting kicked in his teeth. I am serious he is a mean fucker so yeah we are gonna get extremely phyiscal. Don't worry this girl can hit like a man, and if i am big enough to step up to one then i am most def big enough to get hit like one. But honestly i don't think brian has the balls to do it. just because he has tried it once before and got showed up. not to mention at that time i was 5 months pregnant. So now with that pointless info said i am going to be. peace out bitches

you really wanna know what i think well here ya go. this bullshit war in iraq that we are fighting needs to end. I have friends dyin and ones that lay injured. every single person i know is fighting that war risking their lives day to day to help people in a country that don't want it. There are plenty of other things that need to be taken care of in this country. What about research for aids? or what about finding homes for the homeless, or even rebuilding new orleans? I hear alot of people say if u don't support the war u don't support the soldiers well god damn it i do support the troops, but i don't support this war. The troops do what they have to do, and they do under unbelieveable stress and pressure. Who ever voted for bush is a dumbass. Yeah i am from texas and i think our president is a dumbass, it is a shame to say he is from texas. He has done nothing but hurt this country since he has been in office. everyone pointed the finger at clinton for getting his dick sucked and lying about it but this country was in 10 times more better shape then it is now. U can't blame a man for getting off. But there is one man u can blame for all of these deaths. My heart goes out to those who have lost someone they truly love. And my heart goes out to those families who have lost a love one since this war.

as i sit aimlessly wondering what tomorrow might bring i can't help but to start to think of you. The way u make me smile without effort. How excited i get when my phone rings. I begin to wonder what it would be like face to face. would things change? or would thing stay the same? I manage to bring myself from a day dream of what could possibly be. With a short attention spand on something else my mind begins to wonder again. Is it truly meant to be? Hundreds of miles between we begin to hold on to something that might change us for the rest of our lives. I want to embrace what we have now. The long phone calls, the pictures and even the texts. I have never felt so sure about something in my entire life until now. The urge i have to want to be with u, be in ur arms and lay next to you gets stronger with every passing minute that i am not with you. We may not make it, but for right now everything is alright and feels so right.

so i was in the shower this morning when it all of a sudden hit me. How much i truly hate people. I mean seriously just because people look different, dress different, and act dumb with their friends really gives no one else jusification to judge them. Take me prime example. I am a rocker the "beautiful" guys would never take a double look because i am covered with ink and piercings makes me a bad person. It automatically means that i do drugs or i drink all the time. I played sports in high school. yeah i played soccer and i was a cheerleader yeah laugh it up i said cheerleader. I am happy with the way i am. But these damn fucks out the the so called real world past jugdements before actually getting to know someone. Those are the type of people i want to punch in the throat. seriously get a life not everyone can depend on mommy and daddy's money the rest of their life and just because u look better than someone doesn't mean u are better than them.

The pain is starting to get unreal. It seems like everyday being alone is starting to get the best of me. But I feel alone inside my head. Maybe i am just making it out to be worse then it really is. I am sick of going to be every night alone, and i am tired of waking up that way. I have no one to share my free time with other than my friends not that i care cause i love them. I want someone to keep me warm and wrap their arms around me. to walk around hand in hand. Oh shit i am going girly. *slap myself in the face* well that is all for now. bye

Ok my blogs are usually a way for people to get some insight into this head. well here ya go. I don't have many feelings. and the feelings i do have are hidden by smiles and laughs. I am a fun person BUT... I am sick and tired of these people passing judgements on people before they really get to know them. Now this is y i say that.. people message me all the time say omg ur hot.. then they find out that i have 2 kids. HELLO READ MY FREAKIN PROFILE... I am single for the reason being the person i want i can't have and other than that no man wants a premade family. I am a single mother. my daughters father is in her life she lives with him but my son's father walked out on him after i kicked him out of my life. HELLO MY LIFE I NEVER TRIED STOPPING HIM FROM BEING A FATHER! SO NO THAT ISN'T MY FAULT. I have been through more things in my life then most of u will experience in a lifetime. I am a great person and ask anyone on my family list i bet u $100 they will agree without me even sayin ne thing. I do my own thing at my own time. no one tells me how to run my life or how to raise my kids. I am "dudeish" meaning i am more like a guy then a girl. sometimes it is a bad thing other times isn't. I love cars and sports. I am a rocker chick. that means i listen to rock and alternative. NOTHING ELSE. everything else gives me a headache and i would rather crawl up in a ball and die than listen too it. I am not one of the "beautiful" people, meaning i am not well dress, i don't depend on mommy and daddy for money. I love tattoos and piercings yes i have some tattoos in some fem places but i have a half sleeve. I love my piercings. Yes i am not ur typical female. I love imports (nissan and honda.) i don't care for domestics even though i have friends that drive them. I love ya jd, and this car is the only domestic that i will say is nice. yes i said it jd ur baby is nice. I love my family and friends they are all i got. I hate fake people and gold diggers. I am not materialistic nor do i care for people that are that way as well. so this is part of the insight to my mind. there is more to come. peace, love, and car grease