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the universe keeps resounding the same message over and over . here at the gate to my own personal hell i can hear the universe resoundng the ssame messsge. let go of the past . let go of all the hurt. ACCEPT THE LOVE THAT IS GIVEN to you. over and over the messsge is clear., to let go of the past . to understand not everyone who says they love me will not hurt me , to be even more honest than i am. to truely open my h eart all the way,. can i t hough? can i open my heart all the way to him. what if he hurts me as so many have before. how can i trust him when i cant even trust myselfl trust myself not to chase him away with my love. chase him away with the craziness that is my lifel, I do love him. i dont care if the whole world knows. here the universe keeps calling out to me with the same message over and over. im a coward. the past always haunts me. yet i love him so. from his goofyness to his seriousness. i can talk with him for hours and yet it seems i barely talked with him at all. standing before the gates of my o wn hell there are so many what ifs that plague my mind. what if im not good enough. what if my h ealth issues are to much,. so many what ifs. how can i possible be good enough for this man,. i feel so damaged and lost so often. do i follow my h eart and allow ,yself to give my all to him? do i follow my brain that says im a fool fo rlovong again? whic is the right answer which is the wrong. i want to follow my heart
