Everytime something starts to work out, something horrible makes it take another turn. Life throws curve balls and i know that. When my friends hurt i hurt, and right now my friends are hurting and now i am gonna lose my 2 bestfriends for good. and i know i have too but i wish things could go back to the way there were weeks ago. Not just for me but for a friend too. I am not getting into detail cause it isn't no ones business but the people who know. but when i lose my 2 bestfriends i feel like i am losing my family. I love those 2 so much. But i wish them luck and i want them to know that i love u and i will always be here for u. Its really hard for me to try to explain how i feel. It probaly sounds really selfish that i want them to stay due to the reasoning of why they are leaving. But without those to here i have no one. The 4 friends that i have are so close to me. They are the only ones that would always be there if i needed them and always have my back. With 2 of them already so far away, and the other 2 leaving who am i gonna go too when times for me get tough? they are my family. When they hurt I hurt. I am tryin to not to ponder on this issue to much because the more i think about it the more it drives me insane.
