JESUS H CHRIST's blog: "Poetry and Lyrics..."

It is living inside of me like any virus Stop me if you've heard this all before I'm pretty sure you have but you'd like to be lured back in So smile and flirt "Wouldn't you like to stay the night?" "Why of course not my love, can't you see the skies letting loose?" Suspended like a tight-rope walker over the ocean Blowing kisses to the drowning mass Sainted by your self-sacrificial ways Let me greet you with open arms A knife held in each hand Perhaps then you'd get the point Perhaps you'd understand Stab. Choke. Lie. Choke I'd love to watch you die Choke Oh how I tire of circles Every now and then I'd prefer to repeat life in straight lines At least then I'd see just where I'm headed And where I've come from The buzzing flies await The feeding maggots behind All my life I've been ascending Only to be eaten alive

Give it a shot, try it on and see if it fits You sink into me until it never heals I swear I'm in forever Scars and prayers of yours Oh how dramatic you've become Oceans open within my skull I feel them flowing onward Into your past lives and my future I see people dancing for me Smiling people thinking I should join But I only focus on the one that vanishes And here I'm left standing Screaming at your ever-distancing car Come back come back But in reality I couldn't wish you were farther away

Consuming flesh of the newlyweds This is what your world means to me Becoming smaller with every day Inconsequential as your life Spiralling ever downwards as if ground did not exist I lust for none but you This world inside your mouth Like climbing to the greatest peaks To be swallowed by the earth You taste like the ocean Home so far behind me Ever awating your return The salt of your breath And dryness within your tears Never to come back into me Come back into me... Like the smile of the unborn Only a batch of twisted muscles No true feeling.

Running through the rain Bloody children drinking mud All I smell is the scent of memories gone awry Another day passes as a year Perfection ever distancing itself from fate Such a beautiful drunk Is this the story of my life? I fucking hope so Let me push the nails through Scar your pretty frail flesh Does this turn you on my love? Does this destroy you like you hoped? You're still breathing... Knee-deep in the ocean Tides rising Mother opens her arms Pray for infinity Gasp for air

I have to gone to war with myself Even victory is a loss from here How I came to this, I do not know Misspoken, mistaken, something has been interrupted Memories mean nothing to me When nobody's here with me You are not my enemy Yet still we fight to the death If anything, I've been your shadow all this time Which leaves little left to pursue I am zero, tomorrow, merely a concept Without someone to believe in me I am no more From up here I can barely hear the waves Yet I view their glory And prepare to join them All that's left for me now is silence Deathly silence The purest sanctuary Here in my afterlife

I spend my days collecting pieces of you If I can fashion myself in your image Perhaps I'll influence you to follow in my step The less I attempt to control you, the less I know myself Giving my life away to further another's cause Are you sympathetic to such a purpose? Love is no salve but rather brings destruction I now trade you in for the me I once was In every mirror I see your face My own malformed The skull of an angel held in my hands To which I question meanings of my identity She fell from the heavens to stop the earth Blood turned to vinegar; I choked on my words Vultures rejoiced and devils died I watched the only god I'd had wither and die In the space that remains everything is sterile Right angles and greyscale buildings Rats wearing ties feast on the remnants Can they see me in my cell? Out of the public eye do I exist? No vacancies remain in their hollows Yesterday fades as if ending credits intend on appearing They've stopped listening long ago...

The sound of her head bursting As it creates an opening in the wall World blackens to electrical eyes No more forgiveness within the void It once was my mind I keep forgetting whether I am actually alive I can't recall if I'm in my final dream Or if my senses have merely dulled No more self-betterment nor growth I retreat, devolve to childhood once more I am continuously sinking in this alcoholic daze Flesh is melting like rotten fruit Fires consuming the planet from within itself People don't remember how to care Only knowing suffering, apathy towards pain is uniform My vision begins to spiral as if inebriation has arrived But this time I stop a bit too soon In the mirror I see myself slipping The blood rushing to my face He left the room a good twenty years ago Yet his presence is still felt in that corner As if waiting, perhaps you could reach out Hear his voice and release him from this pain But you already know what's become Will you follow?

A little teenage whore Member of the drunk brigade Breath of cigarette and violence in the eyes Living just to further your own demise Want to die young? Let me know how I can help Your image sickens me And on this night of nights I dream of you bleeding With this knife my knife such a gorgeous knife You and I will never be parted With this knife so bloody, thieving your life I will turn you into the most beautiful creature To walk this earth Or die to rest beneath it Teenage whore open your arms Sweating pure alcohol and lust You must be part of a newer breed For never before have I seen your kind Eternally changing I should suppose But is this really evolution to a higher form? Enter my sights Breathing no more Pulse becomes double Fearing for my life Desiring nothing but taking yours Perhaps we'll both go down this time Memories mean nothing to me When nobody remains to share them with

Anything to run away, she prays "May today become my last" No God within, the sirens fade Silence screams into you "I cannot continue to believe in myself For I too descend" So much greed and hunger With all relief denied Loved ones become hindrances Discover what death really tastes like Drowning in the embrace of alcohol She pushes her way through the sky The world turns a shade darker "My eyes shut on that day Opening to view a new world Inhabitants all scabbed" Silver rose to the surface Opened eyes, providing necessary restraint She became the soil; surrounded my roots

Fucking dying drunk Drowning in his own vomit Swims through Heaven's gutters The healthiest decisions made under the influence Piece by piece he rots into the scenery Next drink is on the house, ladies! I've come to take away your happiness You look so weak by yourself So you run to me for help I pretend to complete you Make you turn to shit inside He is the cause of his own problems Blame them wherever his finger stretches The skin's peeling from his hands Consumed within the bowels of his own mind Life is certainly looking up today Even though I watch as it's killing me Say you don't feel like it No you really don't care to I know you really can't I am watching myself die